Looking back at my life I see a so many missteps, wrong turns and head banging on brick walls. It seems there is a tendency to focus on those and not the good things. At least right now.
I raised two daughters that I am proud of, but can a mother be at the same time proud and sorrowful over their daughter's decisions, judgements and opinions? What do you do when you raise them to be opinionated, self reliant and strong, but you find their opinions morally reprehensible, their strength allows for no weakness in themselves or others? I see a woman who demands tolerance but is the least tolerant of others. I have a sadness for the limits they put on themselves by demanding perfection in others.
My mother's love for them is strong, unfailing but there is a deep sadness in me.
So I pray, I pray to the God that my girls refuse to recognize. I pray for strength, courage, enlightenment for all of us. I pray that God will place someone in their paths that will show them the way. I pray that God will open their eyes, ears, minds and heart to His true word.
And I pray that God blesses me and mine.
What I believe
I believe in God, my Father, my Almighty, the Ancient of Days. I believe in Genesis 1:1. I believe that everything is possible with Him through Him. I believe He has marked me as His. I believe that all my sins melted off with the grace of forgiveness when I was baptized as an adult. I believe my life began anew that day as the sins of my past were washed away.
I believe in Jesus Christ the only son of the Father. I believe Jesus left the majesty and glory of Heaven to suffer the indignity of humanness. I believe Jesus suffered for my sins and through his death I am forgiven. I believe that Jesus conquered death and evil by rising from the dead. I believe the Shroud of Turin is real.
I believe in the Holy Spirit, my guide, God who dwells within me, who gives me strength and now leads and teaches me.
I believe in forgiveness of sins, that all life is precious regardless of quality, intellect, age or wholeness. I believe that everyone and everything has a divine purpose, I believe in the sanctity of life at any age. I believe that God condemns those who take advantage of the poor. I believe that I cannot divorce my religion from my relationships. I believe true religion should result in righteous acts. I believe that God requires not only personal righteousness but also social responsibility. I believe in anonymous acts.
I believe that the Bible is true and God breathed, II Timothy 3:16. I believe that God will come again to judge all mankind. I believe in salvation, forgiveness of sins and life ever lasting.